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I'm really torn about Otakon.

Once again it's the same weekend as Kempenfest. And I know that's the one my mom and everyone here really want me to do. And yes, it is a good one and a great place to make contacts outside of the anime/animation world, but...

Otakon is special to me.

And this year, Megs and Brian are planning on going down, and a lot of other people I had talked to about it are going and I just really REALLY wanna be selfish and up and leave and spend a weekend at a place that has become almost magical in my mind! It's gotten to the point where I'm honestly wondering if I could convince my family to set up Kempenfest and run it the Saturday which is it's first day and I'd do Otakon on the Friday and Saturday and then I'd leave Otakon Saturday night and get back in Barrie Sunday and then run Kempenefest till Monday.

Megs and Brian wanna hit up Baltimore a few days in advance to enjoy some of the sites and such and I would love to do that with them ((also need to help them hunt down hotel space, anyone think they have space for two lovely people?? They will pay of course)) and I'd love just to get away and see everyone again and and....

Well, it would mean trying for a table and it would mean saving up quite a bit of money to do both, which means I'd have to seriously focus and work my ass off....

But I'm scared to even breach the topic to my mom and, am I just being selfish and childish?

I just know last year, that even though I was having a blast at Kempenfest, my heart was breaking for not being at Otakon.

Maybe I do need to seriously grow up.

But don't I deserve a break?