luco | Oh look, I'm actually angry...

So, haven't had internet for a while as you can probably tell. But yes, I'm still alive. This past week has sucked though. And really I don't know how to even go through it all, so I'll just make a list and work from there.

One: WAAY too many people at the apartment this weekend.

We had one roommates mom and boyfriend, the other roomates boyfriend and for a day and night a good friend of all three of us. A little too much for me to handle so I spent most of the weekend over at my Great Aunt's place with my mom, I even slept there instead of in my own bed, which was not fun.

Two: Roommate's mom.

I'm sure she is a wonderful mother and a decent person, but anyone who sits there and calls me a slob, tells me I need to contribute more to the household, bitches about every little thing I does and tries to dictate how I should live there (all for the sake of her daughter;s house when really she should see her daughter's room the day before she comes before she bitches to me about messes.), who tells me that my allergy to cat litter deserves no sympathy (because if it was really a problem I wouldn't be able to live there), who thinks the scars on my arm are me just trying to get attention and who insults my mother by saying she doesn't care about me because my mom doesn't yell at me for not keep MY home perfect.....is someone I hate.

And I hate feeling that way, but I do and so, I basically had to stay out of my own home for the whole weekend so that I didn't try and hurt her...

Three: My parents.

I finally learned why my parents got married. It was because my father threatened to take me away from my mother. Dad has confirmed this, and then told me the story behind it.I truly want to hate him, but I can kinda see where he was coming from and now I know why when mom got really mad at me once she told me it was all my fault. I won't go into details about this one, but, even though I know I'm not really to be blamed, I can't help but feel responsible and wish I had seen everything sooner...

Four: School.

That is far too much of a mess for me to even think about, but seriously, I made it through alive, even if looking at my marks makes me want to cry.

Five: Computer-related.

The program (Paint Tool SAI) I've been using for all my art recently and that I've been having the most fun with and that actually is letting me do the things I want to, is expiring this evening and that should be no problem since I have the money for it (about $65 CDN) but my credit card seems to have a problem and I can't actually pay for it. And this is with two weeks left till Anime North and with commissions that I need to do if I want to eat (because coffee and rice don't seem to be enough...) and just yeah....I also can`t seem to find a decent torrent for it and really don`t want to download anything onto this laptop.

Six: Just dealing with everything else that has happened this year.

So yeah, I think I`m just going to spend the rest of this evening enjoying my last day of the trial version by doing as much art as I can until I pass out.

Oh look, I'm actually angry...

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