Oh look, I'm actually angry...

[luco]

So, haven't had internet for a while as you can probably tell. But yes, I'm still alive. This past week has sucked though. And really I don't know how to even go through it all, so I'll just make a list and work from there.

One: WAAY too many people at the apartment this weekend.

We had one roommates mom and boyfriend, the other roomates boyfriend and for a day and night a good friend of all three of us. A little too much for me to handle so I spent most of the weekend over at my Great Aunt's place with my mom, I even slept there instead of in my own bed, which was not fun.

Two: Roommate's mom.

I'm sure she is a wonderful mother and a decent person, but anyone who sits there and calls me a slob, tells me I need to contribute more to the household, bitches about every little thing I does and tries to dictate how I should live there (all for the sake of her daughter;s house when really she should see her daughter's room the day before she comes before she bitches to me about messes.), who tells me that my allergy to cat litter deserves no sympathy (because if it was really a problem I wouldn't be able to live there), who thinks the scars on my arm are me just trying to get attention and who insults my mother by saying she doesn't care about me because my mom doesn't yell at me for not keep MY home perfect.....is someone I hate.

And I hate feeling that way, but I do and so, I basically had to stay out of my own home for the whole weekend so that I didn't try and hurt her...

Three: My parents.

I finally learned why my parents got married. It was because my father threatened to take me away from my mother. Dad has confirmed this, and then told me the story behind it.I truly want to hate him, but I can kinda see where he was coming from and now I know why when mom got really mad at me once she told me it was all my fault. I won't go into details about this one, but, even though I know I'm not really to be blamed, I can't help but feel responsible and wish I had seen everything sooner...

Four: School.

That is far too much of a mess for me to even think about, but seriously, I made it through alive, even if looking at my marks makes me want to cry.

Five: Computer-related.

The program (Paint Tool SAI) I've been using for all my art recently and that I've been having the most fun with and that actually is letting me do the things I want to, is expiring this evening and that should be no problem since I have the money for it (about $65 CDN) but my credit card seems to have a problem and I can't actually pay for it. And this is with two weeks left till Anime North and with commissions that I need to do if I want to eat (because coffee and rice don't seem to be enough...) and just yeah....I also can`t seem to find a decent torrent for it and really don`t want to download anything onto this laptop.

Six: Just dealing with everything else that has happened this year.

So yeah, I think I`m just going to spend the rest of this evening enjoying my last day of the trial version by doing as much art as I can until I pass out.

Comments

[tsu-chan55.livejournal.com]

that roommates mother sounds like an absolute bitch >.o

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

Although I don't like thinking that way about her, I have to agree.

[veronica-rich.livejournal.com]

Three: My parents married because they "had to." That was fun to try to deal with when I was younger. I kind of know what you've got going on.

As for everything else - UGH. Lecturing children who aren't yours, who you don't know, who are legal adults - not cool. Especially with all the shit you have going on.

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

It's an odd thing to know and go through, but then again, I knew there wasn't any love there even when I was younger so, we'll see what happens.

And I'm glad that it doesn't seem like I'm over-reacting to this lady.

[hii-chan.livejournal.com]

You really have all reason to be angry!!
Seriousloy, what is wrong with your roommate's mother?!? What right5 does she think she has??
I think there are a few too many things that happened this week >_< .
So hopefully the next week will be better!!

Oh, and is there any other way to pay for this program? PayPal or something?
Or can anyone with a credit card help you out? Because my credit card is at my parent's place and I won't go home that soon, so t might be a little late for AN ^^"

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

I'm really hoping this week IS better because I don't like being angry, it just leaves me feeling sick and drained....

And for the program...

http://www.systemax.jp/en/sai/

That's the website and yeah it looks like you can use paypal, but the only way I'd be able to pay you (or anyone) back is by mailing(express of course) out a check.

[hii-chan.livejournal.com]

I just looked at it and it seems it's credit card PayPal. I'm not sure if I can use my bank transfer Paypal, but if you want to, I can try. As I said, I don't have my credit card here, but if they accept PayPal by bank transfer, then it should work.
For that, you'd need to give me all information where to click on which buttons and what to fill out where though, since I never bought software in the internet ^^"

And would it be easier for you to transfer money within Canada? Cause I have some friends in Montreal who I will be seeing in August, so I could ask them to keep the money safe for me until then.
(Unfortunately, I don't think they'll visit AN this year, as this would be the easiest option >_<)

And yes, I really wish you a good week!! Being angry is not fun. But being angry is still better than being depressed!

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

If you're willing to give it a shot, then let us try it.

You want to go to the 'Purchase Software license' link. After that, scroll down and click the 'I agree'.

For email address, use your own, because you need to recieve a confirmation number.
Name is: Amanda-Lee Ronayne
Address is: 505-1229 Marlborough Crt, Oakville, Ontario, L6h #b6, CANADA

After that, it will ask you to look in your email and copy the number from the confirmation and then the next page should give you the link to pay with paypal. I don't know what happens after that, but I'm pretty sure the code will be sent to your email and that you just forward to me (along with the full amount I owe you) and I send you money!

And I think I'd feel best if I mailed the money directly to you, if that's okay, because I don't think it would make too much of a difference either way.

But thanks for even attempting this for me.

[hii-chan.livejournal.com]

I just checked and it seems like it's possible!!!
I have my TAN list for bank transfers at home (I'm currently at university), so when I come home around 6pm (noon your time), I'll complete the transaction, okay?

As for paying me back, just do whatever has less fees for you! Seriously, it doesn't matter if I only get the money in August or if you send it non-express. As long as I get it safely eventually, everything's fine with me ^.^

After all, it's good for me as well if you can continue to do pretty art *^__^*

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

Oh that is awesome!

I'll be home at about 1-2 pm so I'll check my email then, and yeah, I'll send you out a check or money order (and I'll include a Hibari and Mukuro button for you as well as a thanks!)

[hii-chan.livejournal.com]

Okay, everything is payed for and I forwarded the e-mail to you. Unfortunately, I lost your gmail address when my computer died, so I sent it to the hotmail address which is listed on your LJ profile. I hope that's okay ^^" (If you have trouble with that, please give me your gmail address again, okay?)

[onikotsu.livejournal.com]

Don't worry I hate your roomate's mother too I haven't even met her. No one has the right to act like that to another person.

"Hugs* take care of yourself okay, I love you.

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

I will indeed take care of myself. I just needed to vent and let off some steam before I snapped.