I feel like everything is just going on as normal and leaving me behind. I just do the same stuff over and over again: I hang out with the same "friends", I eat the same food, say the same things, smile the same smile, laugh at the same jokes... It's like I'm living in a time loop, except that no one else is and their lives are going on and changing while mine isn't. I have tried making changes but they leave me feeling out of place or emotionally dead.
I'm slowly understanding that for some reason, at some point, I have become a spectator of my own life. Instead of living it, I look at it. What was it they said, "I don't live, I exist"? I feel just like that.
![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
timeasmymeasure
no subject
Date: 2010-02-16 07:29 pm (UTC)I'm slowly understanding that for some reason, at some point, I have become a spectator of my own life. Instead of living it, I look at it. What was it they said, "I don't live, I exist"? I feel just like that.