I really wish my health stops being an issue. Last week I had a random allergy attack that ended with me dealing with hive-like swellings and redness. The year before I woke up one day with my left eye swollen half shut. Year around life long allergies can bite my ass. My back/spinal problems can bite my ass. I really wish I have a goal in life or even a source of motivation. I'm horrible at getting things done and my random ADD doesn't help either.
I've always loved drawing when I was little but I've never been any good at it. Okay I'm passable but I really wish that I could convey any image I have in my mind to paper and I greatly admire all the people that CAN but I still feel a bit of sadness inside because I can't.
I really actually want a boyfriend, I never had one and I constantly wonder if there's anyone out there at all for me. On the flip side I don't know if I am capable of trusting that much of myself to any one person. I'm paranoid about getting hurt.
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Date: 2010-02-16 11:44 pm (UTC)I've always loved drawing when I was little but I've never been any good at it. Okay I'm passable but I really wish that I could convey any image I have in my mind to paper and I greatly admire all the people that CAN but I still feel a bit of sadness inside because I can't.
I really actually want a boyfriend, I never had one and I constantly wonder if there's anyone out there at all for me. On the flip side I don't know if I am capable of trusting that much of myself to any one person. I'm paranoid about getting hurt.