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[luco]

I'm really torn about Otakon.

Once again it's the same weekend as Kempenfest. And I know that's the one my mom and everyone here really want me to do. And yes, it is a good one and a great place to make contacts outside of the anime/animation world, but...

Otakon is special to me.

And this year, Megs and Brian are planning on going down, and a lot of other people I had talked to about it are going and I just really REALLY wanna be selfish and up and leave and spend a weekend at a place that has become almost magical in my mind! It's gotten to the point where I'm honestly wondering if I could convince my family to set up Kempenfest and run it the Saturday which is it's first day and I'd do Otakon on the Friday and Saturday and then I'd leave Otakon Saturday night and get back in Barrie Sunday and then run Kempenefest till Monday.

Megs and Brian wanna hit up Baltimore a few days in advance to enjoy some of the sites and such and I would love to do that with them ((also need to help them hunt down hotel space, anyone think they have space for two lovely people?? They will pay of course)) and I'd love just to get away and see everyone again and and....

Well, it would mean trying for a table and it would mean saving up quite a bit of money to do both, which means I'd have to seriously focus and work my ass off....

But I'm scared to even breach the topic to my mom and, am I just being selfish and childish?

I just know last year, that even though I was having a blast at Kempenfest, my heart was breaking for not being at Otakon.

Maybe I do need to seriously grow up.

But don't I deserve a break?

Comments

[karitwilight.livejournal.com]

If you plan to do this as a job the WORST thing you can do is get into situations where you would rather be working somewhere else. It will pile up mentally trust me. Plus you said it yourself this would give you great motivation. Not to mention you sound like you really, really, really want to go... But yeah like I said, if this is for a current/future job growth then wanting to help you cultivate working under that pressure and planning and drive... well to me NOT helping that happen sounds kinda selfish. :/ You're obviously going through personal growth. It sounds to me like you know WHERE to grow, you just need to branch out for a second to do so.

[brian-kun.livejournal.com]

And think of the coke slurpee's girl. Would be nice to see you but if you don't make it you'll me in are minds ever time we pas a 7-11.

[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

Yes, you do. Which is why you should go.

[jirou]

Hey, We are going to have some room, I believe. It's a little early to tell though. I wouldn't mind helping out! We get up there thursday, usually :)

[white_aster]

If there are two things that regularly happen on the same weekend, going one year to one and then one year to the other sounds perfectly reasonable. It's not being selfish or childish...it's balancing what you want vs. what your family wants, which is a very adult thing. It's not reasonable for anyone to expect you to do something that your heart's not in, just because they want you to. You've got the right to make these decisions for yourself, and alternating years or spending half the weekend in one place and half the other sounds like a good compromise.

After all, this is just one year out of many years of cons to come. No one's going to love you less if you don't go this one year.

[wanderingdreamr.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure what you should do but if you're thinking about doing a crazy run around you might as well bring it up with your mom. If you explain to her your reasonings for both she should be able to help advise you and, even if this isn't until July, I'd rather bring it up sooner than later.
Gooood luck!

[erinlin.livejournal.com]

Yeah, alternating the cons sounds like a good compromise.

[onikotsu.livejournal.com]

I don't think anything is childish if you have to work your ass off to get it. And if you can manage to do all that then you sure as hell deserve a break, you deserve one now as a matter of fact. So it'd be doubly deserving *serious nod* But you can talk to your mom about it, see what she thinks, if she'd be willing to run Kempenfest while you're away. Don't be scared to talk about it darling because at some point everyone has to do something just for them because otherwise people would just break down and like I said before it's not childish. *hugs* I'd really love you to go even though I won't be there because you deserve a break and some happiness.

[vampire-otaku.livejournal.com]

As always, I pop in here late and see that everybody's already made the good points. X3

My main thought is that it doesn't seem childish to be torn between two events that you enjoy doing. It's just a matter of choosing or coming to a compromise between the two. Kempenfest is important for you for networking and your career, but Otakon gives you a chance to see friends and hang out with anime nuts that you don't get to see often at all (and in most cases only once a year). If your mom's okay with it, I'd almost say that compromise you mentioned may be a great idea, but ONLY if it's not going to stress you out too much. If you think you'd end up getting too stressed worrying about both events over the course of the weekend, then that's a good sign to simply go with one.

I'm not going to lie; I want you at Otakon more than anything, but then I'm biased. ;) If you don't have to make a decision like, tomorrow, I'd say let it simmer in your mind for a few days and bounce around some ideas, and see what kind of a conclusion you come to. Your health and state of mind are the most important things. <3