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Waking or dreaming?
Mar. 5th, 2004 08:13 amI should probably be doing something useful right now (like art, fiiling in my college application) but I can't for some reason.
It just feels like nothing around me is real. This feeling happens pretty often but when you're stuck in an apartment alone and the feeling hit, sometimes it's hard to want to find reality and escape the dream.
Well, thta's how it is for me anyways. Eveywhere you look things seem too alive, things, places, people, ideas thta you know shouldn't exisit but thta if you reach out to them, you'll feel them.
......
Yes i've been through councelling and all that stuff and no it didn't help. I know I'm bi-polar and from the talks I've had with other artists...this is natural to a certain level. Your imagination takes control of your thoughts and you're willing to believe in things that could get you locked up....
But it was nice talking to the others who go through this, to know that it could be considered normal in a way.
I just wish that the people who understood could also include my parents, but it doesn't, and I feel sorry for them everytime i zone off into another world, since I know they worry, but I'm too far away to care at the time.
On another note...thunder storms are insanely pretty ^___^
It just feels like nothing around me is real. This feeling happens pretty often but when you're stuck in an apartment alone and the feeling hit, sometimes it's hard to want to find reality and escape the dream.
Well, thta's how it is for me anyways. Eveywhere you look things seem too alive, things, places, people, ideas thta you know shouldn't exisit but thta if you reach out to them, you'll feel them.
......
Yes i've been through councelling and all that stuff and no it didn't help. I know I'm bi-polar and from the talks I've had with other artists...this is natural to a certain level. Your imagination takes control of your thoughts and you're willing to believe in things that could get you locked up....
But it was nice talking to the others who go through this, to know that it could be considered normal in a way.
I just wish that the people who understood could also include my parents, but it doesn't, and I feel sorry for them everytime i zone off into another world, since I know they worry, but I'm too far away to care at the time.
On another note...thunder storms are insanely pretty ^___^
