Damn muse....

I was already to finally draw Roy and Ed...had the picture absolutely perfect in my head and then what happens??

I sit down and the pencil creates a dragon on the paper instead. It's not that I don't like the dragon or that I don't appreciate the fact that I can still draw them..it's just that I wish I had been given warning before my muses decided to switch.

But they never listen to me. They, like computers, enjoy messing with my mind...

So now I have to finish this dragon before I can go back to what I wanted to do. And after that I still have a bunch of stuff that needs to be ready for Anime North in May.

Ah well, but first back to Suikoden 3.

*scampers off*

Clouds block so much

Bright and sunny when I woke up...dark and depressing now...and all it took was an hour.

But at least it matches my mood which went form happy..if a touch frustrated to depressed. And all it took was one comment from dad.

That he might be disappointed in me.

And then he walked out the door and I'm left here. I don't know...maybe I'm just to sensitive to certain things..but I feel like curling up and crying right now.

It seems I've failed again, but i can't help the fact that although I loved doing Tai-Chi, I can't stand in front of those mirrors and I still can't stand to be stcuk in a little area with people around me, watching me.

I thought I could handle it, but I can't. Yet to everyone here it's a foolish excuse and to me, it's downright panic and fear.

But I can't go back....and so it seems I've done something wrong once more.

...

Great...now I can't even draw in this mood.

Fishies!

Gah...mood has improved through watching episodes of FMA and somehow drawing the below picture...

( Drawing )

Chin is too small, but hair is nice ^^;;;; but it also tells me that I have to stop looking at so many DNangel pics...

Than again, maybe not.