Clouds block so much
Mar. 4th, 2004 01:07 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lucoBright and sunny when I woke up...dark and depressing now...and all it took was an hour.
But at least it matches my mood which went form happy..if a touch frustrated to depressed. And all it took was one comment from dad.
That he might be disappointed in me.
And then he walked out the door and I'm left here. I don't know...maybe I'm just to sensitive to certain things..but I feel like curling up and crying right now.
It seems I've failed again, but i can't help the fact that although I loved doing Tai-Chi, I can't stand in front of those mirrors and I still can't stand to be stcuk in a little area with people around me, watching me.
I thought I could handle it, but I can't. Yet to everyone here it's a foolish excuse and to me, it's downright panic and fear.
But I can't go back....and so it seems I've done something wrong once more.
...
Great...now I can't even draw in this mood.
But at least it matches my mood which went form happy..if a touch frustrated to depressed. And all it took was one comment from dad.
That he might be disappointed in me.
And then he walked out the door and I'm left here. I don't know...maybe I'm just to sensitive to certain things..but I feel like curling up and crying right now.
It seems I've failed again, but i can't help the fact that although I loved doing Tai-Chi, I can't stand in front of those mirrors and I still can't stand to be stcuk in a little area with people around me, watching me.
I thought I could handle it, but I can't. Yet to everyone here it's a foolish excuse and to me, it's downright panic and fear.
But I can't go back....and so it seems I've done something wrong once more.
...
Great...now I can't even draw in this mood.
