It's raining....
Apr. 30th, 2009 09:12 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
lucoAnd rainy days either make me very energetic or very sleepy.
It's a sleepy kind of rainy day and sadly, that is not what I need because sleepy equals lazy and lazy leads to thinking and thinking is bad right now. Really REALLY bad.
And do you have any idea who hard it is for a student to get a job when they are scared of males they do not know, get nervous in crowds, have more visible scars then people are use to seeing (especially on a female) and is deathly allergic to two fairly common foods?
Really hard.
And many people are suggesting secretary work but I know myself. I despise phones most of the time, hate talking to strangers on them and sitting in an office all day is a major depression trigger for me. I need to be active or at least be able to have the option of getting up and moving and doing various things.
And normally I would suck it up and suffer through it, but after this year, I don't need anything else that is going to help speed up the major break-down that is coming.
I guess all I can do is focus on getting stuff ready for the cons and after I'm completely up to date with sales and commissions just accept more. I mean, the Yamamoto/Gokudera stuff is feeding me right now, so that's a good thing right? And it's also why I've been torturing you guys with so much of it...
But I should stop whining and get back to work. Less then a month to Anime North and still so much I want to have done for then. Going to try and take a break from Reborn stuff tonight though, so we shall see what I can create.
It's a sleepy kind of rainy day and sadly, that is not what I need because sleepy equals lazy and lazy leads to thinking and thinking is bad right now. Really REALLY bad.
And do you have any idea who hard it is for a student to get a job when they are scared of males they do not know, get nervous in crowds, have more visible scars then people are use to seeing (especially on a female) and is deathly allergic to two fairly common foods?
Really hard.
And many people are suggesting secretary work but I know myself. I despise phones most of the time, hate talking to strangers on them and sitting in an office all day is a major depression trigger for me. I need to be active or at least be able to have the option of getting up and moving and doing various things.
And normally I would suck it up and suffer through it, but after this year, I don't need anything else that is going to help speed up the major break-down that is coming.
I guess all I can do is focus on getting stuff ready for the cons and after I'm completely up to date with sales and commissions just accept more. I mean, the Yamamoto/Gokudera stuff is feeding me right now, so that's a good thing right? And it's also why I've been torturing you guys with so much of it...
But I should stop whining and get back to work. Less then a month to Anime North and still so much I want to have done for then. Going to try and take a break from Reborn stuff tonight though, so we shall see what I can create.
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Date: 2009-05-01 10:14 am (UTC)Don't worry it's glorious torture ^_^ But remember that we're happy to just know you, with or without your art.
I love you darling *hugs*
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Date: 2009-05-01 02:10 pm (UTC)*loves you too*