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[luco]

So dress shopping was...interesting...

We were the only people who had an appointment that day which was nice. But trying on all those different dresses, was a lot of work ;; And umm, surprisingly, I have to admit I looked good in a lot of them, even if I couldn't quite connect the girl in the mirror to me.

My favourite one wasn't chosen, but we were looking for a dress that suited all three bridesmaids and I was the only shape that suited that one.

We did find a pretty one that looked lovely on all of us in an eggplant colour which suited all our skin tones so yeah! And they found me black elbow length gloves so that the scars on my arms won't be seen.

It was a little bit....uncomfortable having the ladies there looking at them, because they always seem to assume the worst ((or at least the worst in their mind)) and my left arm will forever be a reminder of the worse part of my life...the right isn't so bad, it's just a sword wound after all.

And at the same time, it was odd. I felt really detached from all three of the girls. The other two are married and Megs is getting married and I just can't connect with anything they're saying. It's just a little lonely...

But it's done and we were all going out to the bar, but my ID was still packed somewhere and so, even though they dressed me up, and I'm still dressed up, I'm at home and a part of me is glad of that.

The whole experience was not what I was expecting and I'm left feeling odd and unsettled.

Comments

[saying-sooth.livejournal.com]

I wish you'd taken photos of you in dresses. >_>

I can understand why you'd be unsettled. But people don't need to get married at any certain age, ok? There isn't a prescribed age for any action.

Everyone is lonely, and everyone is trying to reach out. *hugs*

[mailechan.livejournal.com]

Yup. I felt unsettled when I was a bridesmaid too. It was kinda like "why am I up here too?" even though I knew it was for my friend and I was honored to have her ask me.

[white_aster]

Yeah, it gets that way when you get older and REALLY all your friends are married and having kids. To be the one who's not is always kind of weird. But, everyone's different. Just because you're different from them doesn't mean anything about you or them. S'just folks! Though it's nice when people NOTICE that someone's being left out of the conversation and, y'know, change the subject. Why no, I am not really interested in stories about your kids, BY DEFAULT. >_<

[sheraton.livejournal.com]

...And no, my friend, hearing stories about your kids is NOT a substitute for me having them, which I never will, damnit. I'll listen to your stories because it's about you too, in a way, but at some point it's nice when you stop talking about yourself (in a manner of speaking) and get back to including me. So we can be us again, just for a little bit.

No, I've never felt left out or left behind at all. [/sarcasm]

This can happen a lot at various points in life, Luco-kun. It's unsettling and weird, and I often have to take a few hours of time on my own, doing something creative, before I feel quite "right" again.

Hang in there~~!

[onikotsu.livejournal.com]

I'm glad you found a good dress and color for everyone.

Yeah I know how you feel, even when they say it won't change anything it changes almost everything. *hugs*

[yukinoomoni.livejournal.com]

Eggplant actually was flattering?!

[cephy.livejournal.com]

*points up* What a few of the others said, yeah. It's definitely hard when the world seems to be divided into the marrieds and the non-marrieds, and yeah, lonely when you're one of the latter amongst the former. *hug* I've all but lost friends who got married and had kids and that became their entire world, since I really have no interest in that sort of thing, and yes, it sucks large to feel that divide. So, I guess I'm trying to say I sympathize?

... having been a bridesmaid three times so far, may I also extend my heartfelt congratulations on getting a flattering dress. ;D