And we start...
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lucoSo, long story short: I got overwhelmed and was forcibily made by those to love me to take it slow and catch my breath.
Having art that still needed to be mailed out, no money because of my roommates, credit card and student loan after me, medical bills piled up, legal problems with my sister-in-law, issues with my father, issues with school, the normal severe March problems, not being able to draw and trying to find a job....basically it all piled up and I crashed badly.
That and a medical problem that can't be figured out yet. I keep getting non-allergy related red spots that appear on my hands and arms. They aren't itchy but everytime they appear I get tired...
Sadly, I have to wait for mom's family doctor to have an opening so that I can get blood tests done. It's probably nothing serious, but the not knowing does weigh on a person...
Because of all this I was thinking of doing stupid things, but eventually I just curled up in bed and didn't bother getting up.
Luckily, my brother and mom are awesome and after about 4 days, Lee dragged me out of bed, threw me in the shower and then handed me my favourite hoodie and jeans that he just washed. Then Mom made me make cookies with her while he went out and when he came back he had a very VERY early b-day present for me.
FF XIII.
And they both gave up the TV and got me to play.
That first night it helped wake me up. I was all excited and ready to draw, but couldn't...nothing was working and with commissions piled up and art still needing to be mailed I just...couldn't do it.
And I started slipping back down.
So mom took away my laptop, took away all the paper and sat me down again to play. And whenever I wasn't playing she dragged me out and when she was at work, Lee kept me company.
Finally, the check from an art show arrived and I could send out the printing and that made me feel better since every morning when I looked over and saw it I felt sick.
Dad is still a very hard subject as is money problems, but neither of those is going anywhere anytime soon. Right now, I just want to get back on my feet artistically so that I can get caught up on commissions and hopefully update the sales post. Although, I'm still terrified that everything that happened with the last orders has basically destroyed my online reputation...
But, all I can do now is go forward.
And that means well, I'm back.
I'm going to try and work on the last sketch request I took and am hoping that will help get me back on track and loosened up. But, if you have any more fun silly light-hearted prompts, I'm willing to try them.
...
It's been a slow start so far, but hey, it's a start.
...
Also, I have a lot of entries and comments to catch up on...if there was any reading material posted, could you please point me that way. I miss reading ;;
Having art that still needed to be mailed out, no money because of my roommates, credit card and student loan after me, medical bills piled up, legal problems with my sister-in-law, issues with my father, issues with school, the normal severe March problems, not being able to draw and trying to find a job....basically it all piled up and I crashed badly.
That and a medical problem that can't be figured out yet. I keep getting non-allergy related red spots that appear on my hands and arms. They aren't itchy but everytime they appear I get tired...
Sadly, I have to wait for mom's family doctor to have an opening so that I can get blood tests done. It's probably nothing serious, but the not knowing does weigh on a person...
Because of all this I was thinking of doing stupid things, but eventually I just curled up in bed and didn't bother getting up.
Luckily, my brother and mom are awesome and after about 4 days, Lee dragged me out of bed, threw me in the shower and then handed me my favourite hoodie and jeans that he just washed. Then Mom made me make cookies with her while he went out and when he came back he had a very VERY early b-day present for me.
FF XIII.
And they both gave up the TV and got me to play.
That first night it helped wake me up. I was all excited and ready to draw, but couldn't...nothing was working and with commissions piled up and art still needing to be mailed I just...couldn't do it.
And I started slipping back down.
So mom took away my laptop, took away all the paper and sat me down again to play. And whenever I wasn't playing she dragged me out and when she was at work, Lee kept me company.
Finally, the check from an art show arrived and I could send out the printing and that made me feel better since every morning when I looked over and saw it I felt sick.
Dad is still a very hard subject as is money problems, but neither of those is going anywhere anytime soon. Right now, I just want to get back on my feet artistically so that I can get caught up on commissions and hopefully update the sales post. Although, I'm still terrified that everything that happened with the last orders has basically destroyed my online reputation...
But, all I can do now is go forward.
And that means well, I'm back.
I'm going to try and work on the last sketch request I took and am hoping that will help get me back on track and loosened up. But, if you have any more fun silly light-hearted prompts, I'm willing to try them.
...
It's been a slow start so far, but hey, it's a start.
...
Also, I have a lot of entries and comments to catch up on...if there was any reading material posted, could you please point me that way. I miss reading ;;
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Date: 2010-03-22 01:40 am (UTC)I love your outlook. So much has happened, and you still have your chin up and your eyes wide open.
I'm so glad you're okay.
*hug*
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:39 am (UTC)*hugs back*
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-03-22 01:43 am (UTC)Good luck on your commissions and hopefully your roommates will get less awful.
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:41 am (UTC)Thanks for the support!
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Date: 2010-03-22 01:52 am (UTC)Rebuilding a reputation can take some time, but I have confidence in your ability to do it. You've managed a ton so far in just admitting that you've had problems.
Silly, light-hearted prompts... Well, you might take a look at this thread, if you're at all familiar with Buffy the Vampire Slayer.
Or there's this: "Hey, Mai, can we have sex with that hot Earth boy I nailed on the ferry? You remember that story, right? I told you when you told me about that thing with Ty Lee--actually can we have sex with her too? You know, just to keep the teams even."
Or: This + Booze = How The OWL Got Started. Trufax.
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:43 am (UTC)As for my reputation...all I can do now is be patient and keep working. But I'm glad there are people who do believe in me. It helps alot.
But, those are awesome little prompts and if nothing else, they've made me smile ^__^
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:49 am (UTC)It takes a lot for me to stop believing in an artist, and you've won a lot of good will from me by communicating about the problems you've been having with getting your art out. People can forgive a lot if they know there's a reason to forgive. It's silence that destroys reputations.
My endless list o' prompts claims victory!
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Date: 2010-03-22 01:59 am (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2010-03-22 02:28 am (UTC)Silly light-hearted prompts? Hrm... Ty Lee-kitty and Zuko-kitty. Ty Lee is pouncing Zuko's tail.
Or Teo and Haru snuggling.
Or maybe Reno snuggling Rude and Elena and them both going -.-
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:45 am (UTC)Oh! More kitties!! Kitties are always good! Except when they paw you awake at 5 in the morning just so they can steal your warm spot in the bed...
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A snuggly Reno.
He must be drunk.
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:48 am (UTC)Very drunk.
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Date: 2010-03-22 02:47 am (UTC)Hmm, do you feel motivated for the UrixJirou I requested back then? :3 If not, I'll think of other stuff.
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:48 am (UTC)And I will attempt your request, because fluffy things are comforting...
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Date: 2010-03-22 03:49 am (UTC)Reading thingz: I just finished all of a drabble meme here. A whole lot of cross-fandom crack there.
And I will TOTALLY be ready to give you money for artz again. :D
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:52 am (UTC)...I haven't read anything of yours in a while so this will be a treat!
Thank you. *hugs*
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Date: 2010-03-22 03:49 am (UTC)And you know I'm always here for you if you need someone to talk to, 'kay? :) If I were closer, I'd steal you away so we could go somewhere and relax. Don't forget to smile once in a while, even if it's over something silly; your smile is a precious thing.
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:53 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2010-03-22 04:32 am (UTC)When you're feeling a bit better, I'd like the chance to talk to you on a bit of business.
(hug) ♥
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:54 am (UTC)I'll let you know when people have cleared me for anything beyond fun, light-hearted stuff.
((hugs back))
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Date: 2010-03-22 06:24 am (UTC)*hug*
Cheer up! It's never as bad as it seems.
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:56 am (UTC)*hugs back*
Thanks.
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Date: 2010-03-22 12:36 pm (UTC)I keep getting non-allergy related red spots that appear on my hands and arms. They aren't itchy but everytime they appear I get tired...
Not to say it's necessarily the same thing, but my dad has a condition that sounds a lot like this. It's an unusual form of psoriasis, and he takes a medication for it that's usually used to treat leprosy.
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:58 am (UTC)...
I'll check into that.
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Date: 2010-03-22 06:23 pm (UTC)XXXOOOXXX!
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Date: 2010-03-23 01:59 am (UTC)Lets hope it lasts a nice long time...
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Date: 2010-03-23 12:57 am (UTC)is there any way you can have this print made up to poster size? I was thinking if you had a high enough resolution pic, you could upload it to Zazzle or Cafepress or something, and I could buy it there (with appropriate price increase so I'm payin' you and all)? I reaaaaally like the colors, and I think a big pic of it would fill up my wall nicely. :D
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Date: 2010-03-23 05:09 am (UTC)I've been thinking of you in the past few days and I'm glad to hear you're feeling better.
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Date: 2010-03-23 10:17 am (UTC)