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[luco]

This morning was bad.

Woke up in a panicked state that nearly matched my break-down in dad's apartment. I know it had something to do with my dreaming last night and I'll be honest.

I spent 2 hours trying to call dad before reality kicked in.

Needless to say that I am happy that hospital had given me medication for situations like this and although I hate the drugged feeling that is running through my body, my emotions are shoved back enough that I can function and hopefully work through them. Also called the Crisis Line and they talked me through a few things and warned me that there will be more such attacks.

It was recommended I get either full-time councelling or a psychiatrist, because, while the hospital is free, they all don the bare minimum because of the sheer amount of patients they have to see.

Which means I should be working on more sellable art.

And out of curiousity, which of my art do you want to see more? The cute little fun stuff? The more epic dragons? The Fairies? The fanart? Any other style you think I might enoy playing in? What? I should also mention that with my new tablet there came a free 5 year full membership for Cafepress and so I've been thinking of art to go on shirts and such.

But for right now, I was told to take it easy and relax. To give myself no goals for one day and just focus on whatever catches my interest.

...

I still can't believe it took me two hours to remember. I'm glad I was alone in the house because I ended up screaming at the phone and I'm sorry to say there was blood. Very little, but it was there.

Some days I really REALLY miss being in the US. Being around the people I know there is one of the truly happy things in my life and leaving is always a hellish experience. When I'm rich and famous, I'll hire a driver and take a road trip simply to go a visit anyone is willing to put up with me for a day or two. It would be wonderful not have to worry about running a table and simply relaxing with you guys.

One day.

Comments

[dark-puck.livejournal.com]

First of all, *HUGS* *just hugs*

For your second question, I really like the majority of your work. Though if you go for t-shirts it would probably be the best, legally speaking, if you stuck with original stuff for that. I wouldn't mind seeing a few of the calendar fairies on shirts, too.

And lastly, *MORE HUGS*

[wanderingdreamr.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

As for buying stuff, I like your Avatar fanart quite a bit and wouldn't mind buying some of it but for Cafepress it would probably be better if you came up with original designs for the shirts/other stuff. And there you might as well experiment with what you like and see what it sells, if you've got a five year free membership you have the time to get the hang of it!

*hugs again*

[mewsrissicat.livejournal.com]

Just give us a 30 minute warning before you hit the door, kitten.

Anytime.

~ Rissi and G-Cat

[mewsgryphoncat.livejournal.com]

Seconded with love! ♥ ♥ ♥ We has room and kitties.

I love your dragons and would love to see how you would handle various other mythical beasts. (Especially gryphons. Funny I should say that, huh?)

Your unicorns (yes, THAT picture) would resonate with a lot of people and sell well, I think, if it ever lets you finish it.

[tachyon-telos.livejournal.com]

You'll totes have to come visit me. :D

And I'm sorry about your shitty night. *huggles* And I love dragons and unicorns. Would totally buy a shirt or hoodie with your art on it and pimp it.

[onikotsu.livejournal.com]

I wish you never had to go through these things, I really do. I wish I could visit you and laugh and talk with you in person and hug you. One day we will though, and know that I'm always cheering you on because I believe you can do this. I love you.

Anything you draw I love, probably wouldn't buy anything that was from a fandom I don't know though. And honestly, I do not mean this in a harsh way please understand, I'm waiting for my first order to arrive before ordering anything else. Because I understand that you have had one hell of a year but I don't want to be waiting on two packages. Again, not your fault and I'm not bitter at all, just trying to not get hurt myself please understand.

*hugs* take care of yourself. I love you.

[white_aster]

:hugs: You got through it. That's all that matters. I am SO PROUD that you got through it all on your own. You were home alone and you knew when things were bad and you called who you needed to and took your meds, and maybe I've gotten the wrong impression (from, y'know, knowing you mostly through the internetz), but that's not always been a given. It's not the last time, no, but you are getting better, every day. This is HUGE accomplishment. :hugs:

Personally, I like pretty simple tshirts, so I can wear them to work. It keeps people from squinting at my chest, trying to figure out what the picture's supposed to do. Also, I think that some of your more intricate work wouldn't translate well on a lumpy chest. ;P Also also yeah, probably best for you to stick with non-fanstuff.

I think that a simple ringer shirt with a pair of colored and detailed wings on the back would sell like hotcakes. You could do fairy wings, jewel-toned bird wings, angel wings, DRAGON WINGS! I'd totally love a dragon wing tshirt....

[sleepy-firebug.livejournal.com]

Dittoing white_aster. I'm very proud that you were able to do those things on your own; it just goes to show how you are improving, and that in itself makes me so happy.

As someone who's gone a little bit down a similar path and who's got a (useless employment-wise, grr) degree in good ol' psychology, I agree with the idea of counseling. Moreso that than a psychiatrist, since you're already being medicated. It's amazing just how helpful it can be to talk to a counselor, and the things about yourself that they can help you to realize and overcome.

If you ever are in the states and stop in/come through Philadelphia, you must let me know. The airport there is my stomping ground now, and my door is always open to you. I've got more fuzzy things to cuddle with and make you smile than you could possibly know what to do with, and while I'm not as fuzzy, I'm here too. :)

Relax, remember that there are many people out here that care for you, and know that you'll get through it 'cause you're strong. You wouldn't have made it this far if you weren't. And remember that I love you, even though we're so far apart. <3

[mettathron.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

Sometimes I forget, too. If there's anything I can do to help, let me know.

In regards to the question, I like the fun stuff, and the stuff with lots of colors.