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I've been off since early yesterday and I couldn't figure out what was causing it.

Then I realized:

This is the first Anime North without Dad. I keep waiting for the call where he asks if I'm ready, to talk me down from being too stressed out, to tell me (jokingly) to get a real job and to tease me about dressing up.

There will be no reason to go early and stop in for a visit or hang out for a few days after.

And I'll be in an area so close to where we lived. It's the area with all his favourite stores, where he'd always drive-by the convention just so that he'd be in the area if I needed food.

This hurts. I wonder how many more situations like this are going to show up?

....

Any advice on how to make this sick feeling a little more manageable?

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): /hugs.

Thanks (hugs back)

I know it hurts, hon. And it will happen again, over and over, as you find new "firsts". But just remember that it will get better with time. Give yourself that time and remember how much he loved you and how he'd want you to be happy. :hugs:

It's just a kick in the gut each time it happens and the worst part is I keep expecting him to call and then I can tell him about all that's bothering me....but that won't happen.

I guess do it in his honor? And surround yourself with friends, if possible. *Hugs*

Well, the friends part will be insanely easy. Many people I adore go to it.

Good! :>

I don't have advice. This is something I've never had experience with. The only thing I can sort of advise is to perhaps truck through it? Accept the feelings, because damn, they are so normal and okay, but then just keep your chin up? Perhaps make it a project for your dad and his memory?

Well, I know I can't give up, so, I guess as you said, just getting through it. And we shall simply see what happens next...

All you can do is take it day by day, hour by hour, bebe.

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