Shoot Me.

[luco]

First, I give you



And next I give you

So, this has not been a good week. Not only do I find out that after a summer of basically being on my own, being around people can be stressful and is is something I need to work up to handling again, not something I should be thrust into.

It equals crashing.

And badly.

Follow that up with having nearly died quite a few times because people who should know better still bring nuts and nut-related products to class, and that because of that I have had to miss classes and now cannot enter the second year studio room for the rest of the year, well, it doesn't make me happy.

Now add having my epi-pen getting destroyed and having to wait a week to get a new one. Now try waiting around in your room and not being allowed to go out because you fear for your life for a week. It's not fun. Put on top of that a stalkish bastard, a fucked up financial situation and a teacher who isn't willing to email me back so that I can do some assignments and actually be a part of my second year digital tools class and well. . .I have constantly been either ready to cry or strangle someone.

Oh and there are quite a few bad situations here in residence this year that are adding more stress to me and really. . .this has not been a good start. I'm already exhausted and wanting to give up. I'm just tired.

And there is still so much I need to do and yet I don't want to do anything because I feel hurt and betrayed and if it wasn't for the fact that this week I have recieved some of your pictures and some more pretty fabric to play with I think I would have just given up completely and crawled off into a hole somewhere.

But, I want to succeed so this weekend, I just need to focus on my work and really just try and get myself into some kind of order and prepare myself for school. I just need to take it on step at a time right?



Enjoy.

Comments

[helendragon.livejournal.com]

* BIG HUG * Its going to get better, but don't shut yourself away cause I did that last year and it didn't help. It must not be easy dealing with the things you are. I might understand a little since my boyfriend, has type one diabetes, and sometimes I have to keep an eye on him since he can get low sometimes with out realizing it. But it'll get better soon you just gotta find satisfaction in the little things. I really like this improgress fanart you've got going.

Oh and I'd really like to making you a clay figure, I can even send it to you for free if you'd like.

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

If you're willing to make it, I'm more then happy to accept it!

And yeah, sometimes it's very hard to resist the urge to shut yourself away. Everything would be so much easier, but I wouldn't get anything done, so, just baby steps, right?

[helendragon.livejournal.com]

But what do you want me to make? And yeah you just got to keep trying. If you want something funny to distract yourself theirs this great british talk show that always cheers me up.