It's always something

[luco]

You know when life is finally going well and things are working out and you're like 'Hey! I can handle this!'

But in the back of your mind you just know that something will happen?

Yup.

That something happened.

Tell me why I always attract the wrong kind of male attention when I'm out? I mean, I don't over-dress or under-dress. I hold my head up now and walk confident and yet, once again, I walk away with bruises.

At least I also deliver bruises and marks of my own, but still...

What am I doing wrong? I can't figure it out. I don't even bother putting on make-up when I go out now and usually have on a hat.

But, it happened about a week ago. The police have the report and I'm finally not shaking anymore so now I can get back to people and try to draw. I have sooo many commissions to work on, but I can't focus and everything I just try to let go and draw, my mind goes blank.

The lack of sunlight for 5 days is not helping either.

Ah well, I'll pull out paper and pen and just hope for the best. I'm so far behind on online life that I have no idea how any of you are doing. I hope you're all well though.

Comments

[floranna.livejournal.com]

Iam so terribly sorry to hear that you have been hurt again. I wish I could be there and help you.

It's not your fault. Some men just smell prey and take their chaces, even if you had been wearing a burka. It's not your fault.

God I wish I could help you.

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

Somehow it still feels like it is....

But thanks. Knowing I have people out there who are just willing to listen and care helps a LOT.

[uftaki.livejournal.com]

D: I'm really sorry to hear that. ;__; *net-hugs + offers cookies of choice*

[uftaki.livejournal.com]

Also, to add and agree with everyone else here... This is NOT your fault at all! You're not doing anything wrong.

;_;

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

I'm trying to believe that.

[mogumogu.livejournal.com]

It's not about you attracting people! Don't ever think it's about you attracting people, or that the way you act, look, walk, etc has anything to do with the fact that you got assaulted.

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

It's just....I don't know.

I'm tired of hurting and HAVING to fight.

[colorprism.livejournal.com]

*hugs tight*

It's not your fault. Remember that~

<3333 *snuggles*

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

I'm trying...

[veronica-rich.livejournal.com]

If you walked down the street naked, nobody should be able to attack or hurt you - let alone any other way. (I sort of wish I could live nearby to go out with you one of these times so I could practice my ass-kicking and -chewing skills on these losers.) I hope you'll be doing better soon.

[luco-millian.livejournal.com]

Well, I'm still here and still getting up each day so that counts for something right? ((and yeah, I sort of wish you were here for that too)

[jade-mushroom.livejournal.com]

[huggles]
muah babe

[fieryredqueen.livejournal.com]

There will always be predators. They scent prey even if it isn't really prey anymore, as I suspect you aren't. I've heard this before, shitty as it is. At least you know enough and have the guts to fight them. It's not anything you do that attracts them to you. It's not your fault. It's a basic flaw in them.

[onikotsu.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You're doing nothing wrong, nothing and anyone who thinks that it's your fault at all needs a swift knife in the gut. Because it's not, and I know that's a hard thing to accept because that means there's nothing you can do differently. I just... did anything happen beyond having to fight him off? I know it's not my place to ask I just, please tell me? Because I remember how I felt the first time when I realiazed how much had happened to you and I didn't know, and it felt like I left you all alone to deal with everything. I love you and you are doing nothing wrong, nothing *hugs forever*

[wanderingdreamr.livejournal.com]

D: How in the world can it be your fault for this stuff if you were just walking around, that a human right, not an invitation to anything! *hugs*

[zaralet.livejournal.com]

D:> I hope that the final outcome was not as terrible as it could have been, though I'm sure you don't want to talk about it.

But I'm 100% sure it's nothing you're doing and I hope you are recuperating as well as you possibly can. *More hugs* <3