It's always something

[luco]

You know when life is finally going well and things are working out and you're like 'Hey! I can handle this!'

But in the back of your mind you just know that something will happen?

Yup.

That something happened.

Tell me why I always attract the wrong kind of male attention when I'm out? I mean, I don't over-dress or under-dress. I hold my head up now and walk confident and yet, once again, I walk away with bruises.

At least I also deliver bruises and marks of my own, but still...

What am I doing wrong? I can't figure it out. I don't even bother putting on make-up when I go out now and usually have on a hat.

But, it happened about a week ago. The police have the report and I'm finally not shaking anymore so now I can get back to people and try to draw. I have sooo many commissions to work on, but I can't focus and everything I just try to let go and draw, my mind goes blank.

The lack of sunlight for 5 days is not helping either.

Ah well, I'll pull out paper and pen and just hope for the best. I'm so far behind on online life that I have no idea how any of you are doing. I hope you're all well though.

Comments

[onikotsu.livejournal.com]

*hugs* You're doing nothing wrong, nothing and anyone who thinks that it's your fault at all needs a swift knife in the gut. Because it's not, and I know that's a hard thing to accept because that means there's nothing you can do differently. I just... did anything happen beyond having to fight him off? I know it's not my place to ask I just, please tell me? Because I remember how I felt the first time when I realiazed how much had happened to you and I didn't know, and it felt like I left you all alone to deal with everything. I love you and you are doing nothing wrong, nothing *hugs forever*