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luco ([personal profile] luco) wrote2007-03-27 09:32 pm

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So.....I think I'm in shock.

A friend of mine, who I've known for 10 years.....she hung herself Sunday. Her mother called and told me and invited me to the funeral.

She was pregnant when she died. The father is unknown to me or her mom.

I'm thinking of breaking right now. Shattering in to itty bitty pieces.

But instead I'm going to go to my desk and animate, and then paint. And then work on commissions and try anything to make sure I don't fall asleep. I do not want to see her in my dreams. I really don't.

[identity profile] mogumogu.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 01:38 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, SHIT.

I'm so sorry.

But please don't try to lose yourself in your work. You'll drive yourself mad doing that. If I could be there, I would, but I can't. Find someone to be with to keep you grounded.

[identity profile] tsu-chan55.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 01:39 am (UTC)(link)
*snugs tight* I'm so so sorry ♥

[identity profile] regicidaldwarf.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my god.

[identity profile] tachyon-telos.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 01:51 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs* I'm so sorry.

I found that keeping myself busy for a couple of days when Tara hanged herself helped me out. Then I could sit back and think of her a little more calmly. Sleep, though. Please. ♥

I'm here if you need someone to talk to.

[identity profile] maderr.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 01:56 am (UTC)(link)

*cries* Luco! *HUGS*

[identity profile] maldoror-gw.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 02:08 am (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry to hear that. Do you have any friends around who can give you a hug and a sympathetic ear? Your school should have a counsillor or someone you can talk to as well; burying yourself in your work and toughing it out might help for awhile, but talking helps too. I tried toughing it out and forgetting it with writing and work when I had my own Big Bad two years ago, and it just dragged it out for months instead.

Remember, you got people wishing you the best, right where you are and out in e-space. *hugs*

[identity profile] simargl-wings.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 02:12 am (UTC)(link)
Oh my God....

You poor thing. I'm so sorry for you, and for your friends.

*hugs you really hard*

[identity profile] stephaniecmc.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 02:16 am (UTC)(link)
Oh luco!! I'm so sorry!! *huggle*

I tend to agree with everyone... Try to get some sleep.. Turn on the lights if you have to, find someone to be near you...But please sleep. Later, when you think you're ready for it, remember the great times you had and the memories you cherished with your friend. I'm sure she wouldn't want you to do compromise your health.

And we're all here in e-space to support you! *hug*

[identity profile] jpegasus.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 02:40 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs tight* Wearing yourself out by not sleeping and working endlessly wont make the process any more pleasant. Take some time now, but don't injure yourself (either physically or mentally) by avoiding it long term
<3

[identity profile] icedark-elf.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 02:49 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, damn. It's been a bad week for deaths.

*sends mental hugs* If you want to talk to someone, I'm willing to listen.

[identity profile] ripfangdragon.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 02:51 am (UTC)(link)
oh snap...

*huggles hard*

I know there's not much I can do from here...
But if you need someone to talk to...
I hope you feel better..
*huggles more* I am so sorry...

[identity profile] dried-frog-pill.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 03:04 am (UTC)(link)
Thirds what everyone has said. We're all here for you. I'm so sorry, and I know words really won't make anything much better. But go to a RL friend if ever you need an ear to listen, and you can always just drop me a line, if you just want to talk. Don't let yourself get too lost in your work, though.

*hugs*

[identity profile] dragovianknight.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
::hugs::
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[identity profile] mimi-sardinia.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 04:14 am (UTC)(link)
*Random hug*
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[personal profile] white_aster 2007-03-28 04:50 am (UTC)(link)
:hugs: There's nothing you can do but mourn, hon. But your friend wouldn't want you to go completely to pieces, either, right? Be sad if you have to, talk to someone if you have to, but try not to lose yourself, either? :huuuuuuugz:

[identity profile] ladyharken.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 07:33 am (UTC)(link)
D: *pets*

I'm so sorry

[identity profile] onikotsu.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 10:26 am (UTC)(link)
There isn't much I suppose I can say because I didn't know her but any life lost is horrilbly sad, even more so when that person is close to you. I hope you will be alright and I'm very very sorry for you.

[identity profile] hii-chan.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 10:31 am (UTC)(link)
I feel really, really sorry for you!! I had hoped eventually things would become better for you because you deserve some happiness, but you really don't have it easy, do you?
I can understand that you'd rather keep ypurself busy with work than be alone with your thoughts, but please do not work to the point of your own break-down, okay? It would be a help for you or her if you broke down, so please try to sleep and eat properly and keep yourself in a good shape!!

[identity profile] mailechan.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 11:28 am (UTC)(link)
Oh sweetie... *hugs* I can understand how you feel. But sweetness, don't be afraid to sleep or to see her. If you don't sleep, you won't feel well, and your work will be affected. And your ulcer will start to act up. *hugs again*

I don't know your friend, so I can't say more than I'm sorry. I'm more worried over you.

[identity profile] cephy.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 01:06 pm (UTC)(link)
I-- *HUG*

[identity profile] kala-aira.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 01:19 pm (UTC)(link)
Oh, I'm so sorry darl'in.
That's rough, really rough. I've lost a few people in my time, I thought it helped when I talked to someone. My Mom mostly for me, but I suggest anyone you feel comfurtable with. Keeping it all inside won't do you any good and as someone above me said not good for your own health.
Not that you have to do anything at the moment of course.
But please do sleep for reasons already mentioned and know that we're all thinking about you. *hugs*

[identity profile] mettathron.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 02:49 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry. *offers hugs and chocolate*
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[identity profile] dracontia.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 04:45 pm (UTC)(link)
*hugs*... *hugs again*

[identity profile] wendytigges.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 05:26 pm (UTC)(link)
My condolences...

[identity profile] inferni-spei.livejournal.com 2007-03-28 08:24 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry...
A friend of mine did it a couple years ago, I found him...
One day at a time kiddo

I'm sorry for your loss

(Anonymous) 2007-03-28 09:29 pm (UTC)(link)
I hope you feel better. It's a very sad thing when someone you know dies.

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there. I do not sleep.
I am a thousand winds that blow.
I am the diamond glints on snow.
I am the sunlight on ripened grain.
I am the gentle autumn rain.
When you awaken in the morning's hush
I am the swift uplifting rush
Of quiet birds in circled flight.
I am the soft stars that shine at night.
Do not stand at my grave and cry;
I am not there, I did not die.

when my friend hung himself I made a card with this poem on it.

[identity profile] sunless-death.livejournal.com 2007-04-09 09:38 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm so sorry for your loss. ;_; Know that if you should ever need a hug, real or e- therwise, you have people here for you.